One of the hardest things I have done in my life, is to accept my story. Own up to it. Really learn that it’s mine, and also learn how to tell it to others. It’s scary. I mean, you are basically telling people times you screwed up, fallen, and ultimately looked like a failure. You are laying yourself out there, and hoping the people who hear it, read it, don’t kick you further down. You are hoping that maybe just one person connects with it, and you give them hope along the path of accepting theirs.
Most of my life, I have always heard that I’m crazy. I’m out of control. I have a bad temper. It goes on and on. I think I have honestly heard it from when I was a young girl. I don’t really remember a time when someone did not call me crazy. Now to be fair, there were time’s when I WAS CRAZY. I do have a short fused temper. I admit that. It is something I have struggled with all of my life, and now as an adult with young children. I still struggle with this. There are days I honestly SNAP. I can’t hide it anymore. The more I hide the fact I do this, the more it eats away at me. It darkens my soul.
But what I have realized is that not owning up to my story, in turn hinders me from growing and accepting change. The labels that were placed on me at a very young age hurt me emotionally. They put a leash on me and my abilities to be who I am meant to be in the world. I have felt a strong urge to share my story for a long time, but I had a bigger fear that I would be again labeled as Crazy, Out of Control, and Angry. That people would shout at me "Who do you think you are." "Your story is stupid and has no meaning." So It has taken me almost 32 long years to discover what my negative labels really are, what they did to my soul, and how to turn them into something positive and a gift in my life.
My story is long, scary, and sometimes down right shameful. But I start here, telling you that I am owning it, accepting it, and learning to turn my story into a positive one for the world.
I hope you will take this journey with me. I want you to feel empowered each day. Know that you have a meaning here, on this earth, and your gifts are unique to you. Lets learn to share them with each other, and to accept others gifts as well. Lets learn to build up, and not tear down. Lets learn to no longer label, but to learn about people. Join me! I know it's a scary step, but if you are ready this, then you are ready to face it! Feel free to connect with me and tell me your struggles, and how you want to change and turn your labels into the gifts they were always meant to be.